22 September, 2015

FOR KATHARINA



This post is for Katharina, who was traumatically born into the world and struggled for her life and suffered apnea attacks and a spinal tap and endless tests, and was hooked to feeding tubes and every machine a NICU knows but conquered it all and turns f o u r next week.

My oldest girl turns four!



It took me three solid years to be willing to tell just anyone how awful our twins' birth was. Philippa's home birth was healing for both Peter and me in many ways, and it wasn't until long after that that I started to reconcile myself with the fact that despite what we hoped and wanted and believed for my twin delivery, things didn't go according to how anyone would want.

It was years before I embraced the fact that in a final, desperate moment my midwife forced her arm elbow-deep inside me to pull Katharina down into my birth canal to be delivered by forceps. I had blood pressure higher than any of the nurses had ever witnessed, I suffered placental abruption and nearly bled out and lost this girl who miraculously turns four next week.

Four seems like a pretty big deal to me, especially when I consider she almost wasn't here for a single day.



I wanted to single her out and do something special for her, just with her, despite her being attached to and sharing a birthday with her twin brother. Over the weekend I asked her if she'd like to take her favourite dress and flower crown to the park and have me take some pretty photos before she turns four. Oh, the excitement and pure joy!



These photos perfectly encompass who she is right now at 6-days-shy-of-four-years-old. I didn't ask her to do a single thing for these, she just wandered around from wildflower patch to wildflower patch, collecting enough for a satisfactory bouquet. We didn't bring a book, a blanket, a doll. She's just so simply content, so naturally beautiful.  She's tender and quiet and gentle.

Her heart is about as big as they come.

Little Kitty, we're so thankful you're with us today and overjoyed at the little lady you are.

4 comments:

  1. She is beautiful and full of grace! We love her so much! Well done for sharing! What a good choice of dress and crown! 😉 Sx

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  2. I cannot imagine how traumatic this was for you. What a blessing she is! So beautiful and sweet. Surely God has great plans for her life. May God bless her all of the days of her life. Love to you all.

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  3. I cannot imagine how traumatic this was for you. What a blessing she is! So beautiful and sweet. Surely God has great plans for her life. May God bless her all of the days of her life. Love to you all.

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  4. I know you hear it all the time, but you have magical fairy children! I am sending you all hugs and blessings as you start this big new adventure in London!!

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